Interview with Trey Azagthoth (2001)
By Brant Wintersteen
from Metal Update
Metal Update: Before we get into 'Gateways To
Annihilation', I have a bunch of stuff I want to talk to you about
that's not related to the album.
Trey Azagthoth: Is it about how I'm such an incredible dreamer ?
MU: Yeah. That's part of it.
TA: OK. (laughing)
MU: Heavy metal has a longstanding history of breaking
down boundaries. Is this why you got into metal ?
TA: I got into it to express feelings and in this expressing of
feelings, I guess it broke down some boundaries and definitely rivaled
many opinions. That wasn't the main reason why I did it. I did it
because I have this energy that had to come out.
MU: You are a fan of Tony Robbins. Can you share a little
about what he is doing and how it relates to you ?
TA: Even before I played guitar, I was always into spiritual things.
Even before I knew anything about it, I was just into daydreaming and
things like that. I kind of spent a lot of time by myself creating my
own world and my way of thinking - witchcraft and magic and meditation
and things like that. Tony Robbins to me - what he teaches is a really
great way to present the fundamentals of magic without all the hocus
pocus. He talks about the power of belief and the power of values. He
kind of lets you look at your mind as a big computer. That's a pretty
good way of looking at it. It doesn't have to be looked at like that,
but it's a decent reference point. Your computer is only as good as its
files and its programs. You can have the greatest hardware, but if you
have crappy software or corrupt files then you are not going to get it
to reach its potential. So bad beliefs are like crappy programs or
corrupt files. That's a really good analogy. Tony Robbins is about
getting all the things in your mind so that they are complimenting your
efforts.
MU: What are some of his main themes that hit home with you ?
TA: Being unstoppable. I think that's really what it's all about. Being
unstoppable - not being stopped by other people's ideas and by your own
ideas. Being able to focus yourself and concentrate your efforts. Being
able to program yourself to be able to reach your potential. Tony
Robbins, to me, is like a medicine or something for you to read to help
you understand how these things work. It's the idea of initiating your
life as opposed to living in a state of reaction. Personal power is
about the ability to initiate your life and not to be moving from
reactions to outside influences and stimulations.
MU: It has something to do with breaking down the barriers
that society imposes on people.
TA: Sure, that's the first step, you know - to get back to that innocent
state where you don't have the programs at all. You know, when we're a
baby, we don't have beliefs about anything. We just look at things
completely clear. Then we get trained as to how things are supposed to
be represented, and then we fall into habits and then we become kind of
programmed in one way or another. A lot of it is stuff that happens to
us because we are too young to know any different. We get molded. I
think that a lot of the stuff with Tony Robbins - and not just Tony
Robbins - is to realize these things and to realize the importance of
someone's programming inside their mind. Their values and beliefs and
associations and how all that stuff has an impact on your life. How to
evaluate that and get it to where it's supporting your efforts towards
what you want to do. To be initiating your own life rather than being in
reaction all the time.
MU: Do you think you have reprogrammed yourself ?
TA: Through Tony Robbins ? Tony Robbins has helped me in a lot of ways,
but a lot of the things he talks about are things I kind of believe
anyway. It was just reconfirming things - to hear someone like him
(being so successful) saying stuff that I kind of felt a long time ago.
I've been through a life where I didn't really seem to fit into the
normal flow of things. As people developed, I kind of developed
differently and I found myself wanting to spend more time by myself
rather than spend time with other people and playing that game. I've
definitely, throughout my whole life, had people say, "things are
supposed to be like this" and "this is supposed to mean
that." Talking about what's cool or what's the right way to do
things. So, I always felt that I could decide for myself what's right
and wrong. To hear Tony Robbins say stuff that comes to the same thing
was incredible. I am like a heretic. In the past, the heretics were the
ones that had a different opinion about things. If it was contrary to
the church, they would be considered a heretic or a threat. Tony
Robbins, and other things I read, kind of shows me what is the fear that
people would have of a heretic. . . what was this thing that they were
trying to maintain that they wouldn't want this heretic to be speaking
of. . . what's all that mean right down to. . . When I was younger I was
accepting of language, numbers and signs and all that kind of stuff. I
would just think, yeah I guess that's the way it is, but that stuff is
just man-made and it's not any more right than anything else. It's just
that someone came up with a language and people accepted it because, I
guess, they respected this person 's opinion. The language could have
been anything. It's not like the truth of the universe or anything. No
god made it.
MU: The truth is what you create.
TA: Yeah. Another person that's also brilliant is Deepak Chopra and one
of his sayings is "the meaning that you give the event is the
event" and "the only difference between joy and suffering is
interpretation." When I really soaked that up, that really opened a
lot of doors for me. Deepak Chopra is more about the spirit and the
different levels of existence. Tony Robbins touches on that a little
bit, but he's more engineered for western thinking. Some people think
the mind is everything and they forget about how the mind is so limited.
MU: How does the spirit relate to the mind ?
TA: The mind is trapped in the realm of time and space. It ages, it's
mortal, it's dated and it has boundaries. The spirit is beyond all that.
The mind is like a cup and the spirit is the water from the ocean that
fills the cup. When someone identifies themselves and says what they are
is the cup, the ego, then that can be destroyed. But the water can also
be separated by time and space - like the cup is a mile away from the
source, the water. When you find yourself being the water, then you are
never separated.
MU: How do you take the mind and lead it to the water ?
TA: Well, basically, it's about meditation. It's about the idea
of finding those silent spaces between man's thoughts. In our thoughts
there is a bunch of turbulence, a bunch of judging and it works in a
certain way. To me, there's no inherent meaning to anything that's any
more true or false than anything else. Meaning, itself, is only inside
the mind. Outside the mind, there is no meaning. Without the thinker,
there is no meaning. All the labels that we put on things - when that
thinker goes away, those labels go away too.
MU: Is the self the highest power ?
TA: There's different levels of existence. We are existing in these
different levels at the same time - simultaneously. There is a higher
self that is not so separated, so individual. It is just the whole of
all different things - the energy that produces all things. That's the
higher self. It's like the great ocean. The higher self becomes
separated from that as it goes into the ego. As it goes into the ego,
you take a cup of the water which is like the energy from the ocean now
becoming separated into this container. So, when you identify yourself,
you can either look at yourself as being the ideas, your ways of
thinking, your behavior and all that kind of stuff, or you can think of
yourself as the one who creates all that kind of stuff. What I say is
that the higher self, the true self, is the water not the cup. The cup
is just temporary. If you find yourself in the water then you are never
separated. It doesn't matter if you are a mile away from the source or
floating in the source, you're still the water.
MU: Is the water related to the spirit ?
TA: Yes. That's what I would call the spirit.
MU: How does the spirit relate to religion ?
TA: I guess religion is all about trying to find out where we came from,
what is this higher spirit and give it some terminology.
MU: How about Satanism ?
TA: Satanism is really not something that I study that much or use as a
reference point. There are all these interpretations. If you judge it by
the Satanic Bible, a lot of it is about being the opposite of the
spirit. Trying to base things on the ego and saying the ego is god. That
your self is your ego and that the ego is something that can be taken
advantage of and can lose. That you must defend it. Also that you are
defined by the way you bounce off of other things - how you reflect off
of other situations. That's how you find what you are. But the spirit is
always perfect. It is always adequate and exact. It is everything it
needs to be already and the only time you think that you're not is
because you are building barriers in the ego. In other words, some of
the basic laws in the Satanic Bible are definitely based on the idea
that something can be taken away from you. It's up to you to take it
back. It wants to reverse the idea of - if someone punches you in the
face - turn the other cheek. That's all based on ego. For someone to be
like, "Oh my god, they got this one over on me, now I must punch
them back." That's because their whole existence is so vulnerable
to attack. See, like in the song "Nothing Is Not" - how can
you defeat that which finds nourishment in your attack. It's like the
idea of being something that no attack can touch, that no change can be
made, that nothing can be taken away. You cannot become less or more. It
just always is. You just are. There's no can or want. There's no levels
or standards. All that's in the ego. See, to me, what's real is when you
get those spaces between your thoughts when you are not thinking about
anything. There's a profound power there and it goes way beyond the
analytical mind. It's actually blank. Nothing. It's just nothing. The
mind would say, "That's worthless. I can't measure it. I can't eat
it. I can't cook with it. I can't buy or pay my bills with it. It's
worthless." But it is not worthless because it is like recharging
your batteries, kind of. The thing is, our conversation is into such big
things that it's kind of hard for me to tell you what I think in a very
accurate, in depth way really quick. There's so much to it. We could
talk for weeks and still not cover everything.
MU: So, let's reel it in.
TA: At the end of the day, it doesn't matter about anything that you did
if you don't feel good about it. Really, the only thing important is
feeling good, because at the end of the day that is the value. It's a
feeling not a thing. When your whole self worth is determined by how
other people view you, that is the idea of totally living in the ego.
But when you are spirit, that stuff doesn't mean anything. You are not
attached to other people's opinions about you. It doesn't make you
change how you feel, because one person says one thing and you're up and
another person says another thing and then you're down. You're not
living in reaction. There's a knowing without knowing - without thinking
about it. It doesn't need to make sense. It's just there. That's what
you get from the meditation. It goes beyond words. It's just a feeling,
because really all of it's about a feeling anyway. At the end of the day
it's a feeling that matters more than the physical accumulation of
things.
MU: How does one go about learning about meditation ?
TA: Read a book.
MU: What author do you recommend ?
TA: Deepak Chopra. But to give you a basic idea of what it's
about: It's a posture. It's a breathing. It's a thing about - not as
much about trying to turn the mind off, but when the mind is wanting to
judge instead of thinking that the mind is attached to you, you are
watching it like a movie. In other words, you separate yourself from
your ego and you look down at yourself as you're watching the movie. It
doesn't effect your life. It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't have any
effect. You are totally unattached. Like sitting in a boat and just
watching it go. You're watching the stuff on the sides, to the left and
to the right, just go by and it doesn't mean anything. It's like
watching an event and saying this helps me, you know, this helps make
things work for me. Judgments are not what is most important. If you can
step out of that - it's part of the game. It's like getting into sports
or something like that. You know, winning the game is really important,
but if you don't win are you supposed to go jump out a window ? Are you
worthless now because you didn't win that game ? It's like being able to
separate it from what's really important. It's like saying, "I'm
worth something because I won the game, but since I lost, I suck and I'
m worthless." That's someone who is letting the rules and the
standards dictate to them their worth. It's like looking at it like,
"Yeah, I want to win the game, but I love playing. Win or lose, I
love playing."
MU: There is a way to relate to life like you might relate
to a football game.
TA: I think so. A lot of it, I think, in meditation, is to somehow find
that place where you're higher than all the babbling in the mind -
you're thinking about the past, the future, what this means, what kind
of house you have compared to your friends or where you want to be and
measurements, definitions and all that kind of stuff - when you move
away and look at that as just a picture show. But Tony Robbins is
saying, "Yeah, look at it like that, but now when you are going to
play the game, lets go and play it great." Not forget that it's
just a game - he says that the people that win lose more than anybody
else because they don't worry about the failures. That's also part of
detachment or representing things to yourself. That's another thing -
representing things to yourself which goes back to the thing where
nothing has any inherent meaning. There is no "right" way to
represent things to yourself that should be the only way. That's
something about the Christians where they would draw the line. They'd
say, "If you are on this side of the line you're OK, but if you're
on this side you're wrong." They'd try to pass that off for
everybody. And they're not the only ones, but it's a good example and I
think everyone can relate to it.
MU: How do you think these ideas relate to heavy metal ?
TA: I don't know. I don't think I look at it like that. I just happen to
love playing guitar. I love music. It's a great way to express energy
that I have. In addition to that, I've always been interested in the
occult and spirit and things like that. It mixes together very well. I
guess the band could sing about whatever, but I've just always been
interested in it because I'm one of those people that definitely is a
freak, a heretic, one of those people that doesn't fit in. Everybody
knows their lines, but I don 't. I just think differently. If I would
have been out in that environment with other people saying that they
didn't believe it was going to be good or I wasn't good - if I was
around all that negativity maybe I would have strayed away or eventually
got influenced somehow. Without even knowing what I was doing, I spent
more time by myself developing my style. That was kind of cool. I was
kind of rebelling, I guess, and developing my own style of playing.
People would say, "Your way of playing is out of key" or
"it doesn't make any sense." Even with the first album, I had
some critic saying, "You guys are too late with the satanic
lyrics." That showed me how they were looking at it, but I was
beyond trends. I was just going to do whatever whenever I wanted.
MU: You are known to really express yourself through your
guitar.
TA: Yeah, with all my leads on this album, none of them were planned. It
was all just me winging it. I wanted to come from intuition and not from
a bunch of theory and technique. Obviously, I've learned theory or
technique, so I had some order to my playing. But I just heard the music
go by and I just started playing. It's kind of like the feeling of
playing with your eyes closed. Playing with the inner psyche, as opposed
to trying to engineer and calculate.
MU: Would you identify yourself as a guitarist ?
TA: Sure. That's one of the main things I do, definitely. I love the
music I play. I love whatever I've created and whatever impact that's
had on the musical field. Sure, I like the idea of smoking some killer
solos and thinking, "Man, that fucking solo is so fast and unlike
anyone else can play." Not that it is better or worse - just unlike
- it's different. I like being different. That's something that's really
cool. What I try to do with my music is capture stuff that's from
another world - where I'm really from - and bring that into this world.
I was influenced by Eddie Van Halen, but I can't play like Eddie Van
Halen. Even if I wanted to, I couldn 't play his licks like him. I
certainly think like, "What would Eddie Van Halen do if he was
playing this lead ?" and try to bring some of that out. Or a mix of
an Eddie Van Halen and Jimi Hendrix approach. In my own creative
imagination pretend that he is playing through me. Other times I just
want to play whatever. Sometimes I like to think of some weird style -
like drunken kung fu style - and think of what a drunken guitar style
would be. What's a drunken scale ? Me and Mike Davis used to joke about
drunken scales and what that would be like. I think of guitar runs and I
think of a hot rod doing a whole shot burnout and what that would be
like - leaving the little bits of rubber on the pavement, it's sittin'
there just burning, and finally it lunges forward - trying to get that
feeling into a lick.
MU: Does your music speak ?
TA: It doesn't have any one pattern, I don't think. It's all over the
place. Some music, I think of building a dungeon for Dungeons &
Dragons. I think of a song and I think of each rhythm being a different
room or a different encounter and that's a song. I did all sorts of
creative stuff because that's just the kind of guy I am. I am very
creative and imaginative. That's just what I like to do. I look at
things really weird.
MU: How does that relate to the words that are eventually
put to the song ? When Steve Tucker writes the lyrics, for example, do
they relate directly to the thoughts that are in your head when you
write the music ?
TA: Well. No. The leads being like a whole shot with the muscle car or
the dungeon from Dungeons & Dragons - the words have nothing to do
with that. . . on that level. But if you back up several layers higher
and you look at it from another perspective, it's all one. It's all
self-expression. The details don't matter. It all comes from this place
of energy inside and letting it come out. It changes with each person's
mind that would look at it. The way life is.
MU: Is there any theme on 'Gateways To Annihilation' ?
TA: Sure. An example of this theme is, like, someone like the Christians
of the past - who felt their beliefs were so true that everyone must
abide by them because it makes so much sense to them that that's the way
it's gotta be for everybody - and that person coming to terms with
finding out that it ain't that way. So that their whole structure - the
mental belief structure - when it's all based on something that they
find out was not so right - it crumbles and their stomach falls out. You
really believed that something was a certain way and all of a sudden you
find out that it wasn't quite that way. That's stunning. Someone's whole
world caves in on itself in a symbolic way. In other words, everyone's
always faced some time in their life where something hit 'em. Some news
that was stunning and they went blank. The ground underneath them fell
in. It's something about belief. Deepak Chopra says very much about - I
mean, not even him, but science - do we really think everything we're
seeing is the truth ? There's more empty space in all things than any
solid particles. There was a belief back in. . . I don't even know all
the terminology because I am not a science student. But, like, the
difference between Newton's Law and Quantum Physics - the idea of things
being separate parts. They thought there were all these parts that make
up the whole, but now that they can look into things deeper they find
out that the makeup of stuff is just waves or energy. It breaks beyond
every little part that they thought was a part and that was where it
stopped. That thing breaks into other things and it gets to where
there's not even any particles anymore. There's more nothingness than
something. There's more space than substance. So with that all business
and medicine and everybody's way of thinking shifted. It was a paradigm
shift. That's why there's now this other type of healing - holistic
healing which is witchcraft. It is, basically, the witchcraft that
people would burn witches at the stake for way back when and now it's
accepted. Have you heard anything about holistic healing ?
MU: I have, but I don't know much about it.
TA: Well, it's the idea of chokras or energy levels. This is something
that cannot be touched. It's not physical. It not based on fact. . . I
guess, through Quantum Physics, through calculations, they think,
"Yeah, OK that kind of does make sense." Even though maybe
they can't look at it with a microscope - can't really see the soul -
you can see stuff that you can think is the soul. They're starting to
really believe that, "Yeah, there really is a soul. Yeah, there
really is a lot more to stuff than just the physical stuff."
They're starting to actually believe that.
MU: When you take your beliefs and ideas and put them out
there for public consumption, do you do that just for yourself, or do
you have an interest in sharing the information ?
TA: Well, I've always had an interest in sharing stuff when I learn
stuff. I'm not trying to preach, and I'm not trying to say that I have
all the answers or that people have to accept what I have to say. That's
why I always try to give reference points. I say the Kabbalah, and I
study Deepak Chopra, and I say these different things - Tony Robbins -
and if anyone is interested in any of this stuff, besides just trying to
go by what I say, to go and check it out for themselves.
MU: Are you trying to teach or enlighten people ?
TA: I'm just trying to share stuff, I guess.
MU: Is that something that's exciting about putting out an
album and going out on tour to perform ?
TA: Yeah, but the whole thing is, too, that for me, the music
doesn't even need any of that. You can take the music - with this album
I am really more focused on the feeling and the energy beyond the music.
This album is more about the silent spaces between the thoughts. There's
not a lot of focus on trying to tell people what things mean. It's more
like, take this and get your own meaning. Put it up against your own
reference point, your own experiences. Like, when you listen to the
record, just listen to it and don 't think about what anything means.
Just see how it feels.
MU: You could sit and play guitar all day long. What's
exciting about recording an album and putting it out there for everyone
to hear ?
TA: I don't know. I think back to when, before I learned to play guitar,
I was just a listener and how I enjoyed the feeling of music. The
feeling of Eddie Van Halen. The feeling of Pink Floyd. The feeling of
any of this kind of stuff. What I would get when I listened to it. How
I'd be moved by it. I didn't know music, so I didn't know what these
scales meant. It's just all about the feeling. It was just vibrations
and notes and sounds and flow. To me, that's really the most important
thing about the band - and music. Not the image and not the meaning.
MU: There is some interest in sharing that.
TA: Oh, yeah, absolutely. The interest of showing this feeling - there
it is on the record.
MU: You share it on disc and then you go out on tour and
you perform it.
TA: Yeah, because I think that's the best way to enjoy music - to close
your eyes and shut off the mind and stop thinking about how the pitches
are and what key or how fast something is or whatever. Just let the mind
kind of go. Step outside of it. Flow with the music and see how it flows
through the self. What it does for you, how it moves you. Trying to get
more of a pure experience besides having a bunch of filters that it has
to go through.
MU: Do you relate to this as solely as an artist, or are
you a business person, too ?
TA: I just think of it as an artist. If I was a business person. . . You
mean as far as trying to make a lot of money with it ? I think I'd be
playing a little bit different kind of music.
MU: It must be a good feeling to know that people are into
it so that you can continue to play the stuff you want to play. You've
made a living out of something that you love.
TA: Yeah. I definitely feel very fortunate about that. I think a lot of
that, too, goes into what kind of energy it is. I don't think that
people just like Morbid Angel because of this idea of, you know, all the
philosophy or the evil or the fury or whatever. I think it's that they
hear the music and it's just, "Wow! This stuff is cool, different.
I can't hear that kind of stuff by listening to this other band."
It's Morbid Angel. They also see how we've stuck to our guns and keep
doing it. I think a lot of it is just a special approach to songwriting
and performance. I think there's something that makes us stand out a
little bit in a different way. The energy - I think people pick up on
the energy. The purpose - because it is a spiritual thing. It is coming
more from nothingness, than, like, fabricated in the mind and
constructed like that - engineered a specific way to fit into something.
I think it's got more depth to it than that. I think people tap into
that. At the end of the day, it's a feeling. It's all about feeling.
Everything that results is a feeling. Anything you're doing is to
achieve a feeling. That's something Tony Robbins said that's so
brilliant. That's something that really gets to where the bottom line is
about life - that everything we do is to move toward a favorable feeling
and move away from a disfavorable feeling. Move towards pleasure and
move away from pain. A good example is someone who is into physical pain
and they get pleasure out of it. The end is still to move towards
pleasure.
MU: Does it make you feel good to play to a room of 5000
people as opposed to a room of 10 ? Do you derive pleasure from
expanding your fanbase ?
TA: I think it's great to have more people like it than less, but when I
play I really don't pay attention to how many people are out there as
much as I'm in my own zone. I kind of transcend. . . When I play, I play
from a meditative state. I am not a performer that is out there
performing for people in the same way. I'm just there doing my thing in
all directions. It goes further than the sound can reach.
MU: Well, what's more pleasurable about playing for a room
full of people than just playing by yourself ? Or is it ?
TA: Well there's energy. You can feed off of other people. There's just
an energy that happens. I definitely find pleasure in playing guitar,
there' s no doubt about that, and these songs are ferocious. They have a
lot of power. In the past, I've said a lot of things about how I think
that our music is so exceptionally powerful on big scale levels. There's
people that think I sound arrogant, but I think that our songs are
fucking over the top. I don't think they play games. I think they come
out and they seriously show people what extreme music is about.
MU: The tour with Pantera has been rescheduled.
TA: Now it's going to be a little longer. I was kind of concerned
if we'd still be considered part of the bill, but we found out that we
are still on it. I'm definitely looking forward to that. I think that's
going to be totally incredible; even if we only play for a half an hour.
It's a great opportunity, and it's going to be a lot of fun.
MU: There's going to be a lot of energy in those rooms.
TA: Yeah, I think so.
MU: What's different about 'Gateways To Annihilation' than
previous Morbid Angel material ?
TA: These songs are more based on groove, a real heavy groove as opposed
to just lightning speeds. And most of the songs are played on
seven-string guitar, so they're downtuned. The thing is with music, fast
songs can do certain things and slow songs can do certain things. If you
got so much stuff going at the same time and real fast and complicated
it kind of turns into a rumble. But if you slow it down, it gives things
a little bit of breathing room. You can make it out a little better. So,
there's a lot of technical types of polyrhythms with some of the guitar
parts where the drums at a speed that's not so super, super fast all the
time. It is able to breathe. We've definitely played lots of technical
stuff where everything's going real busy, and then it's super-fast and
it blows by. You never really know what's going on until you watch it,
and then you see what actually happened. But on this, some of it you can
hear the interplay of polyrhythms and stuff like that.
MU: Was that a decision that you made, or did it just come
out that way ?
TA: Well, we always like to make a contrast from one album to the next.
MU: Nobody can accuse Morbid Angel of putting out the same
album over and over again.
TA: Formulas mostly was fast - blitzkrieg - and had a more raw sound.
This album is more drawn out, and actually I think shows a little of the
influence of Pink Floyd - or the Gathering, they're my favorite band
right now. My favorite album is 'How To Measure A Planet'. I like the
first disc. I think that's brilliant - an absolutely brilliant piece.
But I also like 'Nighttime Birds' and I like the newest one as well. I
think the Gathering is one of the most brilliant bands today and America
needs to realize that and give credit. They really should be something
here 'cuz they've got a lot going on. They've done - like what you said
about Morbid Angel. Their albums don't sound the same. There's a big
change in the production and vibe of 'Nighttime Birds' going into 'How
To Measure A Planet ', and then into 'if_then_else'. So, they are not
thinking, like, "this album did really well, so let's do Part
Two." We've never done that. 'Altars Of Madness' was a great
success, and Blessed is nothing like 'Altars Of Madness'. We certainly
didn't take the safe road and do 'Altars Of Madness' Part Two. I think
that's something that people like about our band is that we're not
worried about stuff like that. We just do what we want. We're risk
takers.
MU: There's a lot of feeling on 'Gateways To
Annihilation'.
TA: Oh, yeah! I think there's a damn lot of feeling - and, I think,
right down to the guitar solos. Those guitar solos step out, and show
something different.
MU: Were the solos done in one take ?
TA: Some of them. I do my guitar solos at my house with my ADAT. A
one-take solo is the one on 'Secured Limitation'. From beginning to end
- one take. Even when you hear a change in sound, that's me changing my
program. There's one little extra sound that I don't know how the hell
it got in there at this transition. I think it was something in
mastering. But that's definitely one whole. . . It's just me not knowing
what the hell I was gonna do and just doing whatever.
MU: Do you have any favorite solos on the album ?
TA: Yeah! I think that one definitely comes out, and that's got the
drunken style and you can hear the single coil pickup. I really like to
get some of that stuff going. I am into guitar. I am into loud,
exploding, feeling guitar that's just busting out. I always picture
Eddie Van Halen when I think of guitar. I think of Jimi Hendrix, too, of
course, but Eddie Van Halen was the flash, technical guitar player who
was larger than life. He came out and just changed everything. He blew
people's minds with stuff that had never been on record before. He just
did it like a master. He was a god. So, that to me is what guitar is
supposed to be about. It's supposed to jump out and do that. That's what
I think of when I try to play. I want my guitar solos to really speak.
So, it's not about what scale it is. It's just about - man - raging.
It's a feeling. It just comes out. I always think of stuff exploding -
or melting. You know, totally melting.
MU: Did you take a different approach toward your playing
this time around ?
TA: I don't know. Not really. A lot of it's because of a different
guitar tone that turned out from different tubes and amps. The way that
I used ambient mics. Then the drums - being acoustic toms - the sound of
that. The drummming on Gateways is all triggered stuff. So, all the
sounds are real nice little, tight, compact sounds. They're in and out,
and they don't leave a bunch of extra air laying around. The snare is
really perky and bup, bup, bup, bup, bup. It's not some big sound that
covers up other stuff. When the leads come in, they get a lot of space.
But, no lead has ever been as big as the lead in 'Nothing Is Not'. That
lead was the biggest. That's because I used this special micing
technique called the anti vacuum culture. It basically makes the guitar
sound like you're outside of a big coliseum in the parking lot listening
someone play guitar inside going through all this big PA's. It's all
coming through the walls, so all you hear is the body and the size, but
not the presence. So, when that lead comes in on 'Nothing Is Not' it
almost suffocates everything because it's got more body than presence.
It's funny.
MU: It's unique stuff.
TA: Yeah, I think so. That's why in the very beginning - about the
incredible dreamer - 'cuz that's what I am. I like to use my imagination
and have fun with this. That's one of the reasons I love being in this
band. I am not just doing this stuff for myself and just listening to it
on my little homemade tape. It's actually in the store. People in all
these different cities and states and countries are hearing this and
getting moved in some way or another by it. Somehow there's some impact.
It's created, and there it is. If I hadn't done it, then it wouldn't be
there. Somebody else would do something maybe like it, but I did it and
there it is. I try to do special things. I've done a lot of creative
types of things. Like with my fan technique where I use an electric fan
between the microphone and the cabinet to make this weird sound that
comes in on some of the tracks. You can hear that in the last lead of
'At One With Nothing' and a few of the other ones too. It goes beyond a
guitar effect. It gets into actually manipulating how the sound goes
into the microphone. I started doing that on Formulas, but I carried it
into this album, too. That's definitely the more acid approach. The more
psychedelic, Pink Floyd - see, Pink Floyd would do something like that.
I really like to go beyond just looking at a lead as a lead by looking
at it as landscape - like a dungeon - like a special little room with a
trap. (laughing)
MU: Do you feel like you are constantly expanding in new
directions, or have you always been at the same level of creativity ?
TA: If it wasn't continually growing and expanding, I'd quit. I can't do
things half-assed, not things that are important. I couldn't continue in
this band if someone said, "Well, do it just like this because that
was a sure success." If I didn't want to do it that way, I
wouldn't. I get a little selfishness, or something, but I do what I
want, when I want. That's the way it is. That's the way it should be for
everybody. That's what Tony Robbins says. He says, "I can do what I
want, when I want, with whomever I want, for as long as I want. .
." That was one of his definitions for success. I like that idea.
That's the way that our band is set up. Even when we were on Giant
Records, we still gave them what we wanted and they put it out. So, that
was a first.
MU: Where do you want Morbid Angel to go ?
TA: I don't know. Wherever. Just keep going.
MU: It's experimental. There's no map.
TA: I don't think there's any map. It's just do what you feel. Let it
come out. Have fun with it. You know, this stuff with manipulating the
sound as it comes out of the cabinet adds more fun to it. I want to do
some fresh stuff to keep it fun and exciting. That's why I did it in the
beginning. It might be some riff that I come up with that I just think
is so cool - that's where I get my excitement from.
MU: And don't you want to be like a little kid and run out
into the street with your new toy and say, "Look what I got ?"
TA: Definitely. (enthusiastically) I am a little kid. Definitely.
MU: So you come up with this new toy and you want to share
that with people.
TA: Exactly. That's it! Trying to be the kid. In this world where kids
aren't cool and "you're too old for that." I didn't listen to
any of that. But it's definitely paradigm scrambling because it's
something that makes other people uneasy. They don't understand it. The
normal way of thinking is, "Oh, that's kid stuff, you shouldn't do
that anymore." It's like, "Welcome back to the real
world." Well, I wrote it in the last album, I create myself and my
world.
MU: You still enjoy playing with your toys.
TA: Yeah, guitar and playing Quake III - I have a clan called the Sailor
Scouts. It's a fun clan. I go through phases. I like to ride my BMX bike
and do some silly things with that. Whatever. I definitely like to play
and have fun. I think that's great. It goes back to the belief thing.
It' s not normal. It's almost the kind of thing where people categorize
me as being a sick. . . "You're sick. When are you going to grow up
? That's not the way it's supposed to be." Who says! ?! Who says
it's not the way it's supposed to be.
MU: When are you gonna grow up, Trey ?
TA: (laughing) I don't know. . .